AVOID ‘PIOUS’ PITFALLS

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As originally published in India’s premiere spiritual magazine ‘Life Positive’ (November 2018 Issue)

I have been a passionate spiritual coach for more than a decade now, besides being an intense student of spirituality, for upwards of two decades. And hence I know that, despite all its miraculous benefits, spirituality too, just like many other pursuits in life – like success for example – tends to become a trap. Rather, a seeker makes a trap out of it, out of his own unconsciousness. The way a spider weaves a cob-web out of itself and gets stuck in it. Each of us does that with spirituality. In different degrees. At different stages of the journey.

To portray the same, here are some instances from my own past:

  • Feelings are meant to be consciously felt. Because meditation often blisses me out, I have successfully (and unsuccessfully) used meditation as an escape from consciously experiencing my murky emotions, my messy-yet-beautiful humanity and the dark-yet-fascinating present moment.
  • I have often indulged in self-growth trainings though it came in the way of fulfilling some of my important family obligations.
  • I have refused to develop my muscle to confront (and hence have remained a frightened child somewhere) by choosing compassion over confrontation, where confrontation was called for. Such fake compassion just became my cover-up for not turning into a self-protective adult.
  • I have so often judged my near and dear ones because owing to my spiritual education, I always thought that I knew more than them.
  • I have effectively neglected my physical health because indulging in a blissful meditation always won over doing a strenuous work-out.
  • While my soul always yearned for the pleasurable things of life, my spiritual ego settled for a fake form of simplicity because simple is how one is exhorted to be.
  • In my early spiritual journey, I often handed over my personal power to a Guru rather than owning it up with the support of my Guru. The former helped me surrender but kept me obsequious while the latter, when it happened, allowed me to be devoted and yet left me empowered.

As with me, so with my seeker-friends:

  • I have a friend who chooses to do nothing about his low-quality marriage because he feels it is all an illusion any way.
  • I have another friend who influenced by the positive thinking movement manages to always wear a ear-to-ear smile on his face and yet comes across as inauthentic as he uses it to cover up his discontent.
  • I have many noble friends who over-extend themselves and help a lot of people, but do so in an attempt to feel better about themselves.

Each of you could cite many more examples of how spiritual-sounding ideas and behaviours, applied out of context, deprive an aspirant from genuine spiritual (and emotional) growth itself.

WHO CAUSED THE TRAP?

This trap is not a ‘spiritual trap’ per se; it is the seeker’s own fallibility. Spirituality by itself is enriching but we use it in sub-standard ways, because we can never be any different than what we are, in a particular moment. A chain of iron continues to remain a chain even if somebody turns the iron into gold. I recall this anecdote I once heard where a serial killer when jailed would  convert the the wall of the prison cell into a canvas of sorts, make a sketch of two human beings on it, one killing the other mercilessly. We continue to be who we are, who we always have been, even while the context and setting changes.

By the same token, when we move from the mundane world towards spirituality, we tend to perpetuate our limitations but from under a mask. The human ego now becomes a spiritual ego. The ego which was ambitious for money now becomes ambitious for moksha. The ego which saw no value in the spiritual experience now sees little value in the human experience. The ego which took pride in ‘more’ holidays abroad now takes pride in helping ‘more’ people, ‘more’ being the trap here. The personality is the same, the domain is different.

Perhaps, the spiritual ego is more caught-up than the mundane ego. That is because the spiritual ego is more subtle; because its defence mechanisms wear a holy garb; because with all the additional knowledge it has become a master at doggedly rationalising wherever it stands. It is only in this context that one can fathom Lord Shiva (in the Shiv-Sutra) giving this radical caveat: Gnanam Bandhanam meaning ‘Knowledge is Bondage’.

HAVE I MADE ANY PROGRESS THEN?

So it almost makes one wonder if one was better off earlier. I recently saw a poster on Facebook where a tribal asks a priest: ‘Would I be guilty of all these sins if I didn’t know they were sins?’ To which the truthful priest replies ‘No’. And the tribal questions back, almost rhetorically: ‘Then why did you have to tell me that they are sins? I was better off the way I was.’

Thankfully all this business of getting trapped is not as bad as it appears. It serves a certain purpose; it is an important pit-stop in the journey. It is a part of the maturation process. We can’t not go through it. We can’t bypass it. The journey to the ascent is convoluted and rocky. It is important to be bound by knowledge so that we viscerally experience the importance of freedom from it. It is a rite of passage. It is the downward arch of a spiral moving upward. It is there for a reason, a part of the grand design. We should honour it rather than curse it.

WHAT DOES ONE DO ABOUT THIS TRAP?

However, honouring the spiritual trap doesn’t mean that we do nothing to bust it. The key to come out of the trap is to see the trap for what it is.  When I saw that I was using meditation to escape from my emotional discomfort, I would postpone my meditation until I developed the muscle to stay with my emotions and to also learn all that they were trying to teach me.  And when I saw that I was being unreasonably kind to some people who were bullying me emotionally simply because I was sub-consciously afraid to confront them, I kept my kindness at bay until I learnt how to confront.

While the solution – seeing the trap for what it is – is simple, it is not easy. One needs to be open enough to see that one is not as evolved as one would like to believe and to acknowledge that one has been fooling around for quite a few years, going seemingly nowhere. One needs to be intelligent enough to penetrate through these fine nuances and see one’s self-deceptions. But whatever it is, the trap needs to be busted. A genuine spiritual seeker will see through it sooner rather than later. While a casual spiritual shopper perhaps doesn’t want to ever see it at all.

BEYOND THE TRAP

It helps to ask one-self these challenging questions: How come I have been attending a whole host of workshops, devouring a variety of books and practising a dozen techniques but my issues refuse to budge? How come the pace of my life refuses to slow down though I meditate and pray? How come my relationships – which are supposed to improve as I improve – haven’t improved significantly? While the scriptures declare that everything comes from God (including money), how come my cash flow has dwindled even while I commune with God? How is it that my passion and zest for life isn’t getting any better?  Is my meditative peace and detachment eating at my passion rather than enhancing it? How is it that my body isn’t reflecting the sort of improvements that it should if my consciousness – which shapes the body – is supposedly evolving?

Based on my own journey, I can guarantee you that a sincere probing through these discomforting questions can give you some deep insights into your personality. Insights when clear enough will cut through all of these mental cob-webs initiating you into that pure spiritual domain, which is free of all gross and subtle traps. And what a delight that would be, as you can imagine.

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